No, Thanks

She had in a hand the scrapings of the lawn,

little bits of bark and twigs, and she held a rail.

And winced and smiled and said, no, everything’s all right.

Except it wasn’t: she was doubled over, and the pain in her

back showed in the taut lines of her face.

She felt it in her heart, too; another pain: loss.

He’s gone now, the husband. Didn’t take long.

Dead and gone, and her left now with the house

and the pain and the gathering of wood scraps to

keep the fire going in all manner of weather,

and no-one to talk to except the cat, and she wasn’t fond of him.

And that’s how it was when I offered to help and she said no.

So I stayed as she clung to the rail and held the wood

and I tried to be as bright as possible.

Then she said it was nice of me to drop by and something like

a smile eased itself on to her face. It was just as the wind rose.

4 thoughts on “No, Thanks

  1. You’ve painted it exactly as it is, John, reminds me so much the person of my mother, the stoicism; no matter how bad it was you never needed, would think to ask for help from another. That line Jason high-lighted is excruciating in its accuracy.

  2. I’m fond of this poem John “a smile it eased itself on her face” hits on the nail on the head for me looking out for the old school

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